Fine, Ok, Sad? Focus girl...

A week ago I took a pregnancy test - it was negative and I was fine.  I started Monday and was ok.  Today I notice on facebook that Josiah, an old friend of mine I used to chase around after Bible study when I was a kid, got married last June.  I went to Josiah's page to scroll through wedding photos where I found a post from his wife talking about their ultra sound.  They're going to have a girl in about 3 months.  Now I don't feel so fine, or ok, but kind of sad.  I don't want to be sad! 
    I was the first in my graduating class to get married; it was hard seeing all my classmates start having kids before me.  I got married before any of my ex-boyfriends did; it was hard seeing the guys I once thought I would marry have kids before me.  And now it's the younger siblings.  Now we're getting to the kids that were a couple grades below me.  Now....
    *takes a deep breath*  What's the point in being sad?  Does it do any good?  Sure Josiah is going to have a kid before me, but him and Rachel will probably be great parents.  There is no reason to be upset, clearly that's not God's plan for me right now.  Today I need to work on the house.  Today I need to go grocery shopping.  Maybe DCFS will send us something else in the mail or contact us about the paperwork we sent back to them about becoming foster/adoptive parents.  Today I need to focus on what I should be doing, not what I wish I could be doing.  Some phrases we hear often get stuck in our mind, here's one for me: What messes us up most in life is our picture of how it should be.  Could that be any more true?!
    I've noticed when you have infertile thoughts on the brain a lot of songs take on a different meaning.  The one I've been thinking a lot about lately, and my prayer right now is from this song, Help Me Find It by Sidewalk Prophets: