Monday, January 12, 2015

Bloggers Are Real

I always blog more when I feel depressed, and I have been lately. I blog more when I feel like I have no friends, and that's where I'm at now. And I blog because when it comes to my desire to be a mom... no one else gets it. Once I have a child of my own I imagine I'll blog when I'm depressed, when I feel I have no friends, and because when it comes to having a child after having wanted one for so long... no one else'll get it. But I always hope for improvement. That one day I won't get depressed anymore, that I'll have tons of friends, and that I'll have the perfect support group who understands me so well. Just my realistic-ness gives me a more pessimistic view on all that and I honestly don't see me ever getting to that ideal point. Yay me, lol.

What I said the other day about old time bloggers... I hate losing friends. I'm one of those people when I get lonely I pick up a book. My favorite books are like old friends. When I'm in the middle of a series I imagine what will happen next, when I finish the series I'm sad to say goodbye. When I pick up the series again later it's like a welcome hug, I've missed reading their adventures.

But my blogging friends are better than books, they're real! I've come to love many who may never know I even existed, I'm just one face in the crowd, one comment on a page. But chapter by chapter I read the story of your journey to motherhood. I laugh, I cry, I cheer, and when my heart breaks for you it's real because you are real.

I know motherhood was always the goal. When you have your kid I will be overwhelmed with joy that your dreams came true, yet I may also be heartbreakingly crushed that it's you and not me. But dear friend give me an epilogue, please? Don't need pictures, don't need full names, but just a little something for closure. Something that says you got a happily ever after after all. I know it may hurt for some to read... but know it's something some of us need.

*hugs to you and may your dreams come true*