Another one gone...

I love my infertile blogging friends. I love when one of them gets pregnant and another dream is fulfilled. But it's heartbreaking to not be one of them. It's heartbreaking to become an infertile's friend, ride the ups and downs with them, get excited about their dream coming true, and then.... They leave. Every single blog friend I've followed I started following before they ever got pregnant with their miracle baby. Whether they had been trying 10 years or a few months it seemed within a year of becoming my friend they've gotten pregnant. Start feeling like I'm a good luck charm to have around. I follow you and you'll have a kid soon. But here I am still, sitting on the sidelines, bench almost empty again, rarely a friend stops by to say hello.

I watched my first friend stabbing oranges with needles, after her child was born she made her blog private.

Another friend I watched praise God through the storm, get excited and raise money for adoption, meet their goal and set up the nursery, and then... Her last posts were of her pregnancy announcement and her Christmas card. Been over a year since she's said a word.

Then there's the friend I followed through her depression. Her struggle with her husband not wanting to do fertility treatments, later giving the go ahead. She made a new blog when she got pregnant and I followed along, but before the baby was born she quit posting.

So many people I've really really liked that have moved on and left me behind. But what's worse than not having them as a friend anymore is not getting to see the child you helped pray into this world. Imagining a happy ending and not knowing it's really real!

Charity? I really really liked you. I told my husband all about your journey. I'll miss you as a friend on here. But before you're gone for good... How are your twins? Healthy? Pretty? How was labor? Did you need a c-section or did you have them naturally like you dreamed? I check your blog every day to see if there's an update....