Today... Normally I would be working. I would have had an alarm start going off at 5:30. I would have been at work by 7:15. And it would be almost nap time. I would be trying to decide which area of the house I wanted to clean first this week. But today... I'm not a nanny anymore.
Yesterday my boss fired me through a text message. She wasn't going to have me say goodbye to Reed. She wasn't going to have me pick up any cleaning supplies I left there. I could pick up my last check where her husband works. I did go on over anyway to get my things and say goodbye, because I asked to. I'm told I'll definitely be called to babysit sometimes. I suppose that makes it all better?
She says she's been praying about it for a while now... And when the call came that there was an opening at the daycare... They knew it was time. She's been praying about whether or not to fire me and didn't say that maybe I should be looking for a job?!? I know she doesn't look at it that way... But shouldn't I have been given some warning? Just last week she was telling me schedule changes for the end of June! I thought I would be around at least until then. It's just... over. It makes me feel sick just thinking about it.
Yesterday I called up all the local daycares, only one is taking applications. Today I'm applying at McDonald's. My job was our main source of income! Now all we have is Jared's part time job at McDonald's. He's applying at the bank right now.
Next week we have an appointment for finding out if we can get on Medicaid and Food Stamps. Jared's pride isn't taking that too well.
You're probably wondering why we're still trying to have a kid. Sometimes I wonder the same. But then I see someone who got pregnant on "accident" someone who can't afford it AND who isn't ready to be a mom. I see these people that I believe should have given their child up for adoption, but they keep the kid anyway. I think my situation is so much better then theirs. If they can do it... I definitely can. I don't want to miss the chance of me getting pregnant because I stopped trying. I hope you understand.
Anyways... That's my situation right now. Please pray we get work? Thanks
