.....Cycle Day 1....
I'm getting depressed again about not having a baby yet. It comes... and it goes... and it comes back again hard.My managers Kirk & Mandy have a beautiful baby girl that just turned one. Mandy is just beaming and glowing, so happy. They had a birthday party for her there at McDonald's so that everyone there could come. Part of me was feeling the joy of the moment.... But then I would step back from the celebration... and I really just wished I wasn't working that day.
I went to the back to clean trays while everyone else was out eating birthday cake (i did snag a slice to take home). While back cleaning the trays one of my co-workers came back to do something. Her name is Diana, she's very tiny and wears a very baggy work shirt. I noticed her resting her hand on her stomach and hello, she had a baby bump. I never noticed she was pregnant before. I know it shouldn't really matter... we're not friends or anything... But that wasn't the best time for me to find out that she's pregnant.
Last week a different co-worker, Kayla, had to leave early from work because her contractions were less than 4 minutes apart. Again not a friend of mine, but I do hope everything went well.
I'm leaving McDonald's this next Monday, July 18th. I will no longer be surrounded by the managers, co-workers, and customers that come in with their little ones and/or pregnant bellies. That's one of the many things I look forward to in leaving.
Did I tell you about my friends? Jon & Cherish? We've known Jonathan for a couple years now, but in April he got married! Soon after they got married they invited us over for dinner and a movie at their house. We decided we quite enjoy hanging out with the two of them, and thankfully they decided the same about us. lol. We don't have many friends down here near our age (though their 10ish years older)... So we've been trying really hard to hang on to these new friends of ours. Anyways... They got married in April. On Father's day Cherish found out that she's pregnant. And yes, she announced it that same day. On Monday they came over and we talked a little bit about the midwives she's met. I'm trying to do that whole "living vicariously through her" thing... Not working so great, but oh-well I'm trying. :)
How about my family? Remember me mentioning my baby brother Stuart? Well me and my husband had been trying for a year when my mom announced that she was pregnant with him. On this Sunday, July 17th, Stuart will be a year old. And Jared and I are still not expecting.
And to top it all off... I've been waiting all week for my period to start. And on today, day 32, it is here at last. And as I'm sure by now you are all aware, this has not been my favorite week.