I haven't felt very motivated to blog lately. Most of the people I've followed on here are pregnant, have had their babies, are about to adopt, or just... don't really post anymore. I blog to vent. I blog to be comforted. I blog so I can know there's someone out there who understands what I'm going through. I blog hoping someone will comment and I won't feel so alone in this journey, because they are going through a similar journey of their own. I could go search out some new blogger friends... I could do the ICWL week thing... I could.... I could just kinda vanish for a while until I feel the need to vent again.
I have been REALLY busy lately. I am a nanny spending 45 hours a week with a 2 year old. And on top of that, several times a week I have a 5 month old to care for at the same time. Weekends disappear too quickly. Week nights my house is a mess and if I feel up to it, I clean. I don't tend to get much house work done when my husband is home. We watch movies and tv shows together... We cuddle up and read books.... We play games... We go run errands, or visit friends... My husband has been home a lot lately. The plumbing business has slowed down, and they just haven't had much work to do. So my house? It's a wreck. lol
I've been really stressed with all the crazy busy routine. And then there was this awesome job opportunity that came to me... Oh it sounded great! Less hours, lots more pay, looking for someone like me.... I'm a very indecisive person though. I was in a headache for a week or two trying to decide what I wanted to do. Eventually I turned it down. I've been working with Blakely for two years, I care a lot about her, and this new job would take me away before I'm no longer needed here. Boss thinks she'd like to keep me all through next school year, so I've got a while before I need to be looking for different job anyway.
And.... that's about it. We're still not pregnant, but hoping each month that I am. I had blood tests done a while ago, which all came back normal. I don't know if we should continue searching out answers, or if we should just continue praying. Whatever the problem could be, even if there's no known problem at all, God is the answer. For now we pray and just keep on going.