Sometimes I feel like we're the "Infertile Turtles" while all our friends are part of the "Lucky Ducks". Seeing so many get pregnant without even trying! And all our friends who don't have kids yet simply don't want any yet. I fear as soon as they deside they want them, BOOM! it'll happen real easy. Ok so I won't be all that upset if they get kids when they want them, I just don't want them to deside they want kids before we have ours, you know?
I think most of us bloggers on here that are a part of the IF community really are more a part of a "Infertiles Annonamis". Maybe your life is nothing like mine, but I don't really know any infertiles in "real" life. I know some ex-infertiles. I know one who is way pass the age she can have any. I know one who has adopted and her kids are half grown. The thing is the people I know outside of blogger have all moved on. They say they understand, but I wonder how much they do. If there are any who are currently struggling, they haven't made themselves known to me.
Half my blogger friends have made it to the wonderful point that they have a baby now. I know you all may still understand what I go through, because it wasn't all that long ago. But I'm sure you often felt like me thinking "But you have a baby now, who's to say I ever will? You can't know I will, some people never get their own.". I dunno...
Where was I wanting to go with this post? That's a good question. I think I'm just rambling.
I want to be a Duck! I'm tired of being a Turtle. Know when teams pick their members? How it's awful to be the last one picked? Or maybe the teams have enough players now and you're not picked at all? The rejects from the Ducks this time around are Turtles. Maybe I'll make the team next time.... Being a Turtle can be lonely...
