.....Cycle Day 33.....
Couple weeks ago Jared and I met a new couple through our friends Jon and Cherish: Robbie and Dakota. We clicked! On the first day we met them, Robbie counted us as his friends, saying he felt like he knew us already. Jared and I were excited after meeting them, because we might get more friends!And then last night Robbie invited us to come along with Jon and Cherish for dinner sometime. Yes! I can hardly wait to get to know these people better! But you know what? Wanna know why we saw them last night? They showed up after church because they had some exciting news to share. Dakota JUST found out she's pregnant.
I'm happy for them! I'm excited for them! They are already arguing about boy/girl names! Already know which doctor they want to use. They just got married in May...... But I'm happy for them. They are thoroughly thrilled, just as they should be. Dakota being pregnant honestly does not upset me. But....
But I want to know why God is drawing me to become friends with another newly-wed pregnant couple. Why God is pulling me to new, possibly great, friends who... who won't understand what we're going through. That upsets me a little. No that upsets me a lot! I haven't made many friends down here in these last three years and... and..... well here I go worrying about the future again.
Hanging out with Cherish is great right now! Right now while she's pregnant and doesn't have a kid following her everywhere! I love kids. I really really do! But I know things will change when she becomes a new mom. And now I might be getting a new great friend who will be right there with her. What happens when both of them have kids, get pregnant again, have play dates, and I'm the babysitter?
*Takes a deep breath* Ok... calming down.... I can do this.... I am not to worry about the future. Worrying does no good. Right now, today, everything is fine. I'm starting to make a new friend, friends are good. I'm going to the doctor December 1st... Maybe the doctor will have an easy answer for me.... Maybe I'll be joining my friends in pregnancy soon....... Again I'm thinking of the future, drats.
Anyways... Congrats to Robbie and Dakota on their pregnancy, I pray it goes smoothly for them.