Watching TV the other day I knew, I knew before she said it, knew exactly what she was going to tell him... She's pregnant.
When my friend announced her last pregnancy I knew, I recognized the leading up, knew exactly what was coming.... She's pregnant again.
Before I got married I was already looking out for the signs of pregnancy announcements. My mom often had them, we were a part of a large homeschool group and knew several families that were quite large, and I just loved babies. I've dreamed up several different ways for how I would spill the beans when my time comes, but my time isn't here yet. The more time that goes by that it's not "my" turn the more it seems my pregnancy radar is on the alert, but for different reasons now. I'm always wanting to be prepared to guard my emotions. When your emotional reaction to a baby announcement is smiling, squealing, clapping, jumping up and down (which mine used to be), you don't have to worry how people will react to your reaction, because it's a good one. But when you get a sinking feeling in your stomach, your heart feels like it's been broken, you want to crawl up in bed and not talk to anyone for a month, and maybe have a good cry.... Well no one wants to see that. Quite frankly, you don't even want to see that. You smile, congratulate, bottle up your feelings, and hope you don't crack before you get somewhere private. Sometimes your reaction might be more like the first, sometimes more like the second, or maybe somewhere in between. But being infertile, depending on who it is with the pregnancy announcement... you just never know how your emotions will react until it hits you.
So today a friend posts a picture of her and her hubby on their wedding day because today is their 3rd anniversary. But the words she put with the picture... I can't bring myself to ask if it means what I think it means. It says: 3 years ago today I said "I do" to one of the most amazing men God put
on this earth. 3 years 2 kids and a buddy later here we are! Happy and
still in love, happy anniversary Robbie. I just gotta wonder what does "and a buddy later" mean? Is it a pregnancy announcement? If it is, I called it first.
