My sister Sofia (13) is spending the week with us! Yesterday she felt the need to introduce me to her favorite band, Anthem Lights. Who knows just how many songs of theirs we listened to yesterday, and a few more after Jared got home from work. Anyway... There was this one song by them that really caught my attention, it's called Outta My Mind. Listening to it with the ears of an infertile... wow. How much it hurts watching everyone else get pregnant while you're not, feeling like you've been forgotten once again. Even when you think you're getting away from these feelings they creep back up on you and next announcement you hear you're asking again "What about me?". As Christians we know that's not how it's supposed to be. Jealousy? Envy? Selfishness? Lord if those things are in my mind... get me out of it. This song reminds me that all those pregnancies around me, they have nothing to do with ME! It's not about me. Further in the song it talks about all the ones in need outside my little world, and how I want to lead them all to God. That's exactly how I feel for why I want to become a foster parent and adopt through fostering. There's a bigger picture out there of children outside of my own little womb that need a loving place to call home, even if it's only for a short time. Whatever it takes, this is a rout we're going to try.... Foster parenthood here we come!
