If you've read my last post you'll see that I have been feeling rather depressed lately. If you're wondering how the whole foster care / adoption type stuff is going, well it hasn't been. We've been stuck sitting around doing nothing waiting for foster/adopt training classes to be offered in our area. Now that some are finally being offered where we can attend them, I don't feel motivated to go.
However this last weekend I was blessed with being able to spend time with lots of my family. My parents with all my siblings, my aunts Imalea and Shannon with their families, and my uncle Chris all got together at my grandparent's house and we were able to join them. The hardest thing about someone asking you "How have you guys been?" is feeling you can't give them an honest answer. When my uncles asked I simply relayed how busy we've been this summer and then we talked about Jared's work and his plumbing school he's about to start back up. But that has nothing to do with me. Honestly I'm a wreck. I'm having more and more trouble saying I'm "fine" or "good" or "alright", so I find ways to not really give an answer and tell them about how things are going with training our kitten, Clover, or something like that. But I got the chance to talk with my aunt Shannon. I got the chance to unload on her what's really been going on, and though I'm still a wreck I feel so much better.
I've been messaging my aunt Shannon since we got back home. Shannon really understands what we've been going through because of things that have happened in her life the past few years that I didn't even know about, though my heart breaks that she has been through similar things it also feels so relieved to have someone who understands outside of just my husband. Through her encouragement Jared and I have registered for the Foster PRIDE / Adopt PRIDE class. Classes start Thursday the 21st of August and will occupy our Thursday nights for 9 weeks. There's no harm in taking the classes while we have the opportunity. If we don't end up needing them that's fine, but if we do then we'll already have them. Praying God gives us wisdom and guidance as we try to prepare for whatever His will may be.
